Drowning

Rain, rain on my face

It hasnt stopped raining for days

My world is a flood

Slowly I become one with the mud

...........



Downpour on my soul

Splashing in the ocean,

Im losing control

Dark sky all around

I cant feel my feet touching the ground



This is how I feel.....like I'm drowning. His new girlfriend is pregnant. They're getting married. He's living my life with someone else. Here I am incapable of being with someone else b/c I was truely ready to live the rest of my life with him. Obviously he didn't feel the same as I did. How could he feel as strongly as he proclaimed and be getting ready to marry someone else?



Was our whole time together a lie? Did he ever mean any of it? I must look like such a fool. Does he ever think about me? Does he miss me? Does he wish we were still together? God, I'm such an idiot.