I do believe I'm losing my mind. Social situations send me into anxiety attacks. Friends wanting to hang out scares me more than I can explain. What's wrong with me?
I was normal...for the first time in my life I was as normal as anyone can be but he ruined all of that.
I don't even know what to think. There are so many thoughts running through my head that I can't discern a single one. Then, at times my mind is completely blank and I cant form a coherent thought. What's wrong with me?
God, just let it be over. I'm not much for reading the Bible anymore, but I do remember one passage; it talks about the the Spirit understanding the heart even when words can't express the pain. That's what I fee like most days; I'm in so much pain that I can't even describe it. I can't talk about it. I can't let it out. If I do, it may never end. Someone told me I wasn't Superman, that of course it hurt and I could show it, I could cry. But, she doesn't understand that I can't. She doesn't know what it will do to me. I'm so afraid.
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